alright ready for the big news.... Doctor says may 5th, sonogram and I think may 14th, I am having a girl!!!

so i am going back to oregon tomorrow night YAY!

thinking and wishing had i gotten in more trouble in high school, why didn't i?  no one cares about what you did in high school once you are out... how are they able to scare kids into being so mindless, yet insisting that they learn. meh doesn't make since. Get in as much trouble and if you are tired of school, suspension doenst seem so bad to me, get the week off with an excuse, woohoo!  just as long as you aren't a "bad" person.  hmmm and only mess with the teachers that truly deserve it and already make your life hell, not the good ones, no need to ruin them.

i really need someone to talk to... with all of these people telling me what to do and making decisions for me and about my baby, they can all go to hell... ready to leave the country and not look back, not look back even once, and surly not telling a sole where i am going.  making all the plans though :)  makes me much happier to think of one thing i'd like to do.